Someone once said that experiencing nostalgia is proof that your life is special and meaningful and worth living.
You know how our phones put together these little video collages from the camera roll, with music and stuff? Well I got one like a week ago titled “Life in Honolulu”. It was just pictures and video clips like random selfies and some goofy moments with friends. No epic mountain ridges or anything. Probably not what I would’ve included if I had made a My Time in Hawaii type video collage myself.
But I got flooded with nostalgia. Simply from the fact that it was a life and I lived it. It made me happy because my life in Hawaii was full of frustrations and I was just so. over. worked, but the nostalgia confirmed what I did know at the time; that I’d be able to appreciate that life for what it was more once I got some distance.
Another post within just a couple days for once? Why not!
I’ve been meaning to write this one for a while now. As I’ve mentioned many times before, I am burnt out. And when I say burnt out, I mean diagnosed with medical burnout by a doctor. Until just a little while ago, I was so mentally fucked up I couldn’t even read my own mail. I had to have a friend read it and summarize the contents for me. So far 2025 has been all about rest and recovery for me. (Shout out to Medicaid for insuring people like me who literally physically CANNOT work, and which should absolutely not be defunded!!!)
I want to share this video, which has been a huge inspiration for me when it comes to changing my priorities regarding my health and move away from my workaholic personality. Seriously, it has helped me more than any therapist or self help advice when it comes to chilling the fuck out.
I love both The Bear and Perfect Days, and comparing the protagonists like this really made things click for me. The video does contain one spoiler for The Bear season 2, so if you haven’t watched that season yet and are sensitive to spoilers, I wouldn’t watch the video yet. But I hadn’t seen the show yet when first watching this video and it’s a reeelatively minor spoiler, so it didn’t ruin my experience of the show. So it’s up to you -
Also here’s a picture of me on a cloudy day in Malibu from a while ago:
I’ve been obsessed with bold color combinations lately. And I love the feeling of cutting up paper, unscrewing the lid of my glue stick, and taping washi tape to stuff.
The sun peeking out behind the cloud is a design by ah choux! cafe (www.achoux.cafe).
Hi. I’m Heza. I live among citrus trees and flower fields. I want to
post things on the internet, so I’ve made an old-timey blog. I like native plants,
being in nature, cute outfits, fun adventures with friends, and snacks.
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