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On the quest of having a very good and sexy life

2024-05-07 permalink

Hi. I’ve been sick or something. Or I had a bad reaction to a medication I was taking for my asthma. So my body went nope. I suspect stress plays a part too. I’ve been so stressed and worn out, mainly because of having a million problems with my asthma this whole semester, which I haven’t had at all since I was like 15 so that’s super frustrating. School work has also been killing me. Even though my workload has actually been significantly less than previous semesters. I guess it’s the asthma stuff that’s been messing me up and making normal things so much harder. My brain has been completely busted :( But luckily I had a chance to get some real good rest. So I’ve been resting and doing meditation hypnosis stuff to try to chill tf out. And trying to eat healthy food because having instant noodles for dinner three nights in a row before probably wasn’t the best idea.

So I was thinking back on life and I’ve noticed that it seems like I’m the happiest whenever I feel excited about the future. And when I’ve been the unhappiest I’ve typically dreaded the future, had no idea what I want to do, etc.

Wait, I forgot where I was going with this. Oh right. I decided to come up with some life goals. Before when I’ve made lists like this it has mainly focused on achievements and really big things, but I want it to be fun things that don’t require years of blood sweat and tears to accomplish.

1. Have a really cute apartment

I’ve never really cared about decorating and have always treated my living space more like storage space than anything else. But with old age I’ve started to crave having a really nice space. Here’s some inspo from Pinterest.

Right now I live in a shoe box in a shitty student dorm so I don’t really want to buy a bunch of stuff to put up here, but once I have something a little more permanent! Then!

2. Have a full spa day with a really good massage

I’ve been to spa type places but I’ve never actually gotten a professional massage. Could be nice.

3. Visit all national parks in California.

Because I love national parks and I love California. I even have the national park passport stamp book thing. Here are my stamps and sticker from Joshua Tree earlier this year!

4. Go out in the desert and watch the night sky away from light pollution

We tried doing this in Joshua Tree but it was so cold and dark and scary so it didn’t feel safe to go into the wilderness. We did look at the sky right outside the house we were staying at, but that was close to town so there was of course light pollution. I still got to see more stars than I had ever seen before! But I want to see pink nebulae and all that cool stuff.

There are obviously more things I want to do. The other day I suddenly got the biggest craving to go back to Hong Kong. I haven’t been there since 2016, and that was just for 1 week. Booooring. I love Hong Kong, you’d think I would’ve been there several times by now.

Anyway, here’s some good and sexy things I’ve done so far this year:

Some lovely walks in Tokyo the first few days of the year

Camping trip by Kahana Valley in January! First pic’s from Hanauma Bay lol, but it was the same weekend and I like the pic.

Kayaking with humpback whales on Maui in February. A whale and her baby passed by right under our kayak! It was super hard to get decent pics of the whales though.

Joshua Tree in March :)

First night of summer break

2024-05-11 permalink

I’m officially on summer break!!!!! And had a magical beach picnic last night with my beautiful friends, Tim, Rachel, Ian, and James. Then I had a 7 hour call with my long distance besties that I haven’t talked with in forever. Life hits different when you don’t have to write papers ;_;

Aloha and Mahalo

2024-05-16 permalink

Hi everyone. It’s a rainy day with flood warning notifications here on Oahu. For anyone curious about life in Hawaii, it is ALWAYS either windy or rainy (or both) and only ever sunny when I’m trying to walk somewhere and sweating my balls off.

I have just been packing and getting ready to move out of my shoe box dorm room and go back to LA over the summer tomorrow. I have to put all my stuff in storage by 6 pm tonight so then I won’t have any bed sheets or towels or nothing for the night o__o I intend to use a sweater as comforter when I go to sleep.

I don’t have any major plans for when I’m back in LA other than apparently going to some kind of magic brunch on Saturday O__o No idea what to expect.

Hi ho passion

2024-05-20 permalink

I’m in LA. It’s cold af and I’m not used to it. I’ve had my favorite fried rice from Trader Joe’s twice. Did you know Hawaii doesn’t have Trader Joe’s? ;_; They don’t have Chipotle either :(((((

The magic brunch was… an experience. I got to go up on stage and have card tricks done to me lmao. They had good potatoes too.

Yesterday I played video games and took walks and tried my friend’s weird rowing machine. I’m now sore in my sternum. I don’t usually play video games but I’m on summer break so everything’s possible. Mainly because my friend wants to play It Takes Two and needs a second player because it takes two.

I’m weirdly backwards jet lagged or something, cause I woke up at 3:30 am and have not been able to go back to sleep. Since then I have enjoyed eating Pringles and staring into space for an hour and a half.

Dis week

2024-05-24 permalink

Hi bloggi. It’s been a week of doing not much. I’ve been waking up late everyday. Today I didn’t get out of bed until 4 pm :0 I’ve realized how deeply burnt out I am after the school year. I was aware that I was academically burnt out but now I’m noticing that there’s more to it. It’s like I’ve completely exhausted all willpower to do things you don’t want to do but have to. Like cooking and doing the dishes, which I hate. I’ve just had to force myself to do things I don’t want to beyond what’s healthy for so long now that the ability is gone. Other chores I enjoy doing more are no problem at all, like laundry, taking care of my hygiene, etc, but all those things you have to do even though you may not want to, I’m just not able to. Luckily I have kind people around me picking up the slack ;_;

I relapsed big time on my quite severe scrolling addiction during finals, because I used it to numb my emotions to get through the ordeal. So I’ve completely avoided all social media stuff for the last two days which always feels good. A year ago I was engaging in 12 hour binges where I wouldn’t even take a break to eat soo yeah… it’s a problem ^^; Life always magically feels a little more fun the first few days of being completely off it.

I’ve been doing yoga almost everyday, which is pretty much exactly what I need atm. My body is craving movement like crazy nowadays. Tomorrow I’m going on a hike that’s supposed to be more challenging, so I’m hoping I’ll be completely exhausted after.

The other day I had Chipotle for the first time in over a year ;_;